Monday
= okie. and not okie. =
i remembered showing THE EXPRESSION to joyce when we were playing on sunday. i was playing the 2nd keyboard. it was a very funny thing. gavin was playing at 3/4 beat on a 4/4 song on the drum. syl and i were staring at each other. helps!! we couldn't signal to him cuz he was in this world of his own.
helps!
i only remembered that i gave THE EXPRESSION to joyce about gavin now. i wonder how much she hates me now. hhahah! frankly, i find it very amusing - joyce hates me because i gave bianca THE EXPRESSION the last time. SHE ACTUALLY becomes angry for a few days. HAHHAH. I find this amusing. this is totally impossible. dunno why did i said that i will try not to give that expression. an expression is an expression. is not controllable. esp when u are playing.
to make a person hate me less - make myself controlled??? ..
oh well!
i am not worried about losing the friend.
if she is meant to be lost, she is lost
if the person is a friend worth keeping - she would be a friend worth keeping.
i guess in joyce's life, the only person that matters is bianca. i bet, if i have shown the expression to andrew, she wouldn't mind it AT ALL. well, if her life is only about one person, i can't help it. nothing against bianca, but i just don't reallie like the things that i am subjected to. i am not sure if she is mad at me. but it's not my concern now. i can't make her happy - unless i go for face off session or something.
the story always go - for some people, the world evolves around them.
life is but a choice. i heard this from the radio station
20% of our lives are things that we can't control
80% of our lives are things that we can control
so why get upset by the things that we can't control [ e.g. like who hates who].
it doesn't matter at the end.
for all things come to an end
- your lives and friendship.
why hold on to things that are not yours.
live life!!
i bet luke is going to say that i'm very brave to post this.
it's long over due, my dear friend!!
princess maddie.
